Page 252 was a day filled with variety and a look back as well as a look ahead.  It began before daylight with the usual cleaning of the bathrooms and hallways then collecting trash from around the building and taking it out.  With a rainy morning making it somewhat cooler outside, I spent some time trying to adjust the cooling system in an attempt to keep the building as comfortable as possible.  I had an 8:30 AM dentist appointment so once everything in the building was set for the day, I headed to the dentist for a six-month cleaning.  As I sat in the chair getting my teeth cleaned, I thought back to my first visit to this dentist about a year and a half ago.  During that first visit, there was a question on the new patient form about previous visits to the dentist and the date of the last visit.  I remember doing the math and writing down that it had been somewhere in the neighborhood of 35 – 40 years since my last visit to a dentist and I couldn’t remember the actual date. 🙂  It’s not that I had a problem with dentists, I just wasn’t in the habit of going and didn’t have a pressing need for any dental work until recently.  Now, at the end of each visit, I schedule my next cleaning appointment and then I don’t worry about how long it has been or if it’s time to return — I simply keep my appointments.

As I thought about that, my mind went immediately to a friend who always talked about the Sunday worship gathering at church — specifically the sharing together in the Lord’s Supper — as a weekly appointment.  He would talk regularly about our need to keep our appointment with each other and with the Lord.  As our gatherings would end, he would often pray about God watching over each of us until we gather at “the next appointed time”.  One of the things in next week’s prayer guide is a focus on God’s command to not give up meeting together.  Most Christians know the importance of meeting together for worship and mutual encouragement yet many find it far too easy to let distractions keep them away from church gatherings.  We would do well to make an appointment each week to gather together in remembrance of Jesus and at the conclusion of each meeting reconfirm our commitment to keeping our appointment the following week.

After the dentist appointment, it was back to work for a while before calling it a day in order to attend the funeral service for one of my aunts.  As I watched the photo slide show at the funeral home, it was a trip back in time as it brought back memories of childhood with my cousins as we would play in my grandparents’ barn during the times we would get together.  Later my aunt and uncle had put in a pool with a diving board so it was a favorite place for me to visit.  Not only was it a look back, but this aunt was my mom’s sister and today she looked eerily like my mom so in a way it was an unwelcomed look forward.  Very few of us like to think of the end of life for our loved ones, but unless Jesus returns first it is something we will all face.  It is only through a faithful relationship with Jesus that we can look forward to the end of this life on earth with great hope and confidence of life eternal.

As the day began to fade away, I picked up my camera and went outside to take a few photos.  I put a fixed-length 35 mm lens on my camera so it was somewhat old school in not having zoom capability and my having to actually have to move to frame the scene I wanted.  One of the shots I took was of some sunflowers with a bee approaching one of the flower heads.  In keeping with the look back and look ahead, I used modern technology to crop the photo and apply a filter effect to give it a black and white photo look.  My first photography experience was way back when I was 8 years old and took photography as a 4-H project.  The first year we were required to shoot everything in black and white film so I guess today’s photo is a “Thursday Throwback” to a much earlier time.

I pray that you and I would so greatly value the time we spend with our church family, and with Jesus around His table, that we would make a standing appointment that would take precedent in our busy life.  I pray that we would consider the great value of being able to spend time with family and loved ones, even as we consider the brevity of life.  I pray that we would be ready for the end of our life on this earth as we put our faith in Jesus and the work He has done on the cross.

Page 251 was back to the early morning cleaning and building prep to start the day.  As I took the trash out, there were a few deer in the back corner of the property keeping an eye on me to make sure I wasn’t coming out to disturb them.  They seemed okay with me being out there as long as I wasn’t making any attempt to move in their direction.  Once the early part of the morning routine was done, I responded to some messages and ordered some cleaning supplies that we were running low on.  After that, I settled in to do some more writing on my “Devotions For Those Who Serve” series.  Today I worked on several days worth of devotions on the topic of serving with purity.  Much of what I hear or read on the topic of purity focuses almost exclusively on sexual purity.  While that is an important aspect of purity, I think that sometimes the immense focus on that tends to make the larger topic of purity go unnoticed.  Many times if we would address a lifestyle of purity that encompasses everything we do, sexual purity would become a natural result without having to make it into more, or less, than what it should be.  When our mind, our heart, our actions, our very way of life is lived with purity we bring ourselves into submission to Christ and it transforms us from the inside out.  Too often though, we fail to allow God to cleanse us from the inside and then we wonder why our life seems to be headed down a track that is going nowhere.  

After my mind and eyes were tired of writing, I began to wrap up my workday and got drawn into a conversation about volunteers in the church — specifically a growing lack of volunteers and commitment to teach and lead the next generation.  One of the premises of the devotional series I am currently writing is that we are all called to serve.  While each of us are gifted in different ways and are called to serve according to our gifting, within that serving ought to be an element that sees value in teaching those younger than us whether it is younger chronologically or spiritually.  While not all of us have a gift of teaching, we have all been commanded to make disciples and teach them to obey all that Jesus commanded — including the command to make disciples and teach!  Many churches have difficulty finding volunteers to teach children and adults when they ought to be filled with people wanting to share how the truth of God’s Word transforms lives.  Perhaps one of a multitude of reasons is that we’ve been led to believe the teaching roles belong to the “professionals”.  Unfortunately, that attitude is shared by some in “professional ministry” as well as some who ought to be volunteers.  In my first part-time youth ministry, I had a preacher tell me that I had no business being in ministry without a Bible college degree.  Over the years I have also heard the excuse by potential volunteers that “that’s what we pay the youth/children’s/associate/senior minister to do”.  Yet the truth is that God says those who have been given specific gifts, including teaching, have been given them for the purpose of equipping the body, that is everyone else, to do the works of service that will build up the body into maturity with the head of the body being Jesus.

I pray that you and I would seek to live with purity in all aspects of our life.  I pray that we would live as those that have been washed in the blood of Jesus.  I pray that we would live as pure from the inside out.  I pray that God would raise up volunteers within His church that would respond willingly to His command to make disciples and teach.  I pray that we would value the contributions of everyone as fellow laborers for the cause of Christ.

After a long, busy, and seizure-filled weekend, Susan needed to catch up on her sleep so my page 250 became a work from home day.  Mary Jane went to work early and did my morning cleaning at the building so I could stay with Susan.  Technically, the first hour of today’s page was spent finishing our drive home following a Lake Huron lighthouse trip.  Because we got home in the middle of the night, my morning was filled with writing — first yesterday’s page and then the prayer guide for next week.  As I wrote yesterday’s page and spent time in prayer about what God would have me write for next week’s prayer guide, the idea of never give up seemed appropriate.

I wrote in the introduction to the prayer guide that while Jesus taught that unless we give up everything we have we cannot be His disciples, the Bible also talks about some “things” that we should never give up.  God says that the crown of life is reserved for those who are faithful to the end.  At least in my life, it seems that satan works overtime to get us to give up.  For many of us, though, the idea of giving up on God isn’t likely to take place in one fell swoop.  Instead, the enemy encourages us to “just take a break”.  We’ve grown up in a culture where advertisers have sold us on the idea that we “deserve a break”.  With that idea planted in our minds, it becomes easy for each of us to become convinced we are not giving up on anything — we are simply taking a much deserved break.  While there is scriptural precedent, and Jesus set the example, for times of rest and refreshing — a break, if you will — the good purpose of a break is to allow us to draw closer to God.  The enemy’s purpose in convincing us we need a break is to draw us away from God.  This makes it critical that every time we step back from something and take a break, we examine the purpose of the break to determine if it will draw us closer to God or take us further away.

As I finished up the writing, Susan was finally getting up and it was time to make lunch — she really was tired. 🙂  After lunch I spent some time scheduling the prayer guide to go out next week and then spent some time going through the photos I took over the weekend.  A big focus of the trip was visiting and photographing lighthouses along the Lake Huron shoreline.  The purpose of these lights are to provide direction and guidance to all those traveling on the water.  The lights also provide warning of dangerous areas that need to be avoided.  When Jesus states that He is the light of the world and as His followers we are to be the light of the world, His purpose is that we would provide direction and guidance to those traveling around us in this world.  When we hold forth the light of God’s Word, we not only lift up a beacon to lead people to safety, we also provide a warning of the dangers that exist in a world filled with shipwrecked people.  

I pray that you and I would learn the difference between giving up everything to be a disciple and not giving up in being a disciple.  I pray that we would seek God when it comes to our taking  breaks in life so that we are refreshed by Him rather than being distracted by the enemy.  I pray that we would understand our role as the light of the world — as one who holds forth the light of Jesus in a dark world.  I pray that we would look to God for direction and safety as we hold up the light of His Word to lead others to the same safety we experience in relationship with Him.

Page 249 was a long day — in fact it ran overtime by the time we got home, thus I’m writing it the next day.  There is something different though, between long days spent with my family and long work days.  With the Labor Day Weekend providing a little extra time before preschool begins and it is more difficult to get away, we did a little pre-anniversary trip to photograph some of the Lake Huron lighthouses.  We caught a couple of them Sunday evening, but Monday began with a search for access to one that the info I could find said was on private property and the only views available were from the water.  I should  have trusted my info because after numerous dead-ends, it became apparent that the lighthouse wasn’t going to be found by us.  Once we gave up on that one, we headed up the Lake Huron shoreline stopping at the lighthouses that we could get to by vehicle with the final one in our journey being in Mackinaw City at the base of the Mackinac Bridge.  

As we worked our way up the coastline of Michigan, I wasn’t sure how far we would get before we ran out of day and needed to head home.  At each lighthouse stop I would check and the next lighthouse on my list would only be about 30 miles further north, so another 30 miles didn’t seem too far to go.  Eventually we reached a point where we were only 50 miles away from the Mackinac Bridge and since we had never seen it or been that far north in Michigan, I figured “what’s another 50 miles”.   So, we arrived in Mackinaw City around 7 PM and after taking pictures of the lighthouse, the setting sun, and the bridge, it was time to begin the drive home.  While the continued journey north throughout the day meant the drive home was continually increasing, the time spent together enjoying the beauty that surrounded us at our stops and as we drove, was worth what was now a 5+ hour drive home.  Interestingly enough, if we had headed home after the lighthouse before Mackinaw City, it would have been a 6+ hour drive from there being that there was not a very direct route home from the Forty Mile Point lighthouse.  So, making the extra stop didn’t even delay our return home by much.

As I think about our travels throughout the day, it reminds me of the journey that we take through life.  Sometimes we spend a lot of time, effort, and resources looking for something that isn’t available to us.  While there may be times when we do that in a process of discovery, more often than not it is time spent trying to obtain what our instructions, God’s Word, say isn’t meant for us.  Is this not what has been happening from the beginning of time?  While God had laid down clear instructions of all that was available to Adam and Eve, He also made it clear there was fruit from one tree that was not meant for them.  Rather than accept that, they put themselves into a position where Satan could tempt them with a promise of being able to obtain the “forbidden fruit”.  While I wasted an hour trying to find a way to a lighthouse that was clearly listed as not accessible by land, many Christians waste much more than an hour trying to justify a pursuit of something that God has clearly stated in His Word is not for them.  We are very good at thinking we are the exception and somehow we will find a way to make what we want work.

Once I decided to quit wasting time and submit to the truth, the rest of the day was a good example of approaching our life’s journey one day at a time — or one lighthouse at a time. 🙂  I think that if I had fully, and accurately, mapped out the day ahead of time, I would have decided it was too much and missed out on some of the beauty God wanted to share with us.  I believe one of the reasons God doesn’t reveal our entire life journey to us is that He wants us to trust Him with each moment.  But I also believe He wants us to learn from each moment and use it to build for what’s next.  Years ago a friend told me that whatever I’m going through now is preparation for whatever is next.  If we were to see the full journey laid out before us, I think many of us would be tempted to take a few shortcuts and skip some of the parts that appear to be difficult miles of our journey.  When we commit to doing what is next and then going to God for direction for what comes after that, I believe we will find our journey to be less stressful and we’ll be better prepared to enjoy each stop that God brings us to along the way.

As the day finished, I was also reminded of the times when we travel through some long, dark nights in life.  As the miles added up and the hours slipped by, at least two things kept me going.  One, we were together as a family and two, we were headed home.  Our journey through life is a lot more enjoyable when there are frequent stops filled with beauty and fun.  While I pray those time exist on our journey, most of us will have times when the road is long and dark.  It is during those times of our life journey that the people God has placed around us help keep us going.  But even more importantly, having our mind and eyes fixed on our destination of home helps us to press on when the way isn’t filled with the level of excitement and beauty that we would prefer.

I pray that you and I would give careful consideration to the “forbidden fruits” we attempt to justify and pursue even when we know God has said no.  I pray that we would live life to the full each day, knowing that our current steps are just as important as our future steps.  I pray that we would keep our eyes fixed on Jesus as we journey toward home, especially when the days seem dark and long.  

Page 247 was a nothing scheduled kind of day but my mind was up and going full speed long before my body wished it would have been.  Eventually my mind and body will find a sleep/wake schedule they both can agree on, but until then I carry on as best I can.  Susan didn’t have the problem of waking up when she wished she could sleep.  She once again slept away the morning and didn’t make it to the zoo.  As she slept, I did some more work on the sermon I’ll share tomorrow and got my exercise in by playing Wii Fitness.  It said my fitness age today is 21 so I tell myself I’m doing really well at eating right and staying in shape. 🙂

Eventually Susan woke up, so I took a break from going through my notes and scriptures to get her breakfast and get the pellet grill started so I could work on Saturday lunch — yes, she got up that late.  I had everything on hand today, so it was back to the usual mushroom bacon cheeseburgers for lunch.  After lunch I worked on some of my photos from yesterday and then we took a little family trip to Bonneyville Mill County Park to shoot some photos.  Didn’t end up staying there long as early in our visit Susan had a seizure.  She did come through it rather quickly and we managed a few more photos before leaving and heading to The Chief in Goshen for ice cream — ice cream helps just about anything. 🙂

The photo on today’s page was taken of the mill from the end of the Dahlia garden at the park.  The beauty of the flowers added to the peacefulness of the park.  The mill was in operation today, but it was as we walked by it that Susan had her seizure so we didn’t go in to get any pictures from inside.  Whenever I visit a site such as this old mill or a restored historical area, my mind always reflects on the scriptures that talk about our need to look for “the ancient paths” and to honor the “ancient boundaries” by keeping them in place.  It seems that we have an addiction to “improving” things to the point that we even attempt to “improve” things that not only don’t need improved, they can’t be improved.  The ancient path to a vibrant and growing relationship with God is an unchanging path that leads to the same place today as it did thousands of years ago.  When God called a people to Himself, the foundational element of that relationship was a people who would love Him with all their heart, mind, soul, and strength.  As they would commit to Him being their God, He would commit to them being His people.  Jesus affirmed that very foundation when He was asked about the greatest commandment for those who would seek God.  His response was based on that same foundation of loving God with your entire heart, mind, soul, and strength.  It is out of that foundation that we are able to love our neighbors as ourselves.

Yes, methods and techniques change — sometimes more than we’re comfortable with — but the foundation must never change as we pursue a relationship with God.  Jesus made it clear that He is the only way to the Father.  The truth of Jesus being the Christ, the Son of the Living God, is the only foundation upon which a solid house, and life, of faith can be built.  Anything else and we soon find our house crumbling with the sand upon which it was built.

I pray that you and I would have good routines that keep us on a path that daily pursues God.  I pray that we would enjoy the reminders that exist all around us of God’s creativity and love.  I pray that we would hold fast to the foundation of faith that is found in Jesus and displayed in His love for the Father.  I pray that we would understand the difference between an unchanging foundation and the methods and techniques that need flexibility.  

Page 246 is a Friday which means another two-shift day in order to have all my work done in preparing the building for Sunday.  Mary Jane had gone through the building Thursday night following the preschool open house, so I was able to get right to the mowing even before the sun came up.  An early start meant that I was able to have a decent break in the afternoon before coming back this evening to clean.  The day has definitely been all over the map in regard to the crazy things people do.  While it is mostly funny, my mental/emotional confusion I find myself in didn’t see it as all that funny today.  While I was mowing, a parent brought a student in for school and then just drove through the grass as he left.  I guess he couldn’t be bothered to back out of the parking space and wait for the other parents who were also trying to leave.  Later in the morning after I had finished mowing, the students were taken out to check them for lice right outside my office door onto the wet, freshly cut grass.  Needless to say, they tracked said grass into the building and left a trail of it for me to  clean up tonight.  And to top off the crazy, funny, what were they thinking events of the day, the cafeteria floor was swept (as it should have been) and simply pushed into a corner to be left under/behind the push broom.  Anyhow, just a glimpse into the life of a who knows what I am. 🙂

In the middle of all that, I did take an afternoon break and took my kayak down to Potato Creek to spend some time on the lake.  Still no sign of any of the eagles, but it was incredibly peaceful as I spent time with God going over my outline for the sermon I’ll share Sunday morning.  The breeze made paddling in the open water a bit challenging, but a number of the little coves and inlets were protected from the wind so I could enjoy the reflections as well as the actual clouds and sky.  As I made my way around the lake, a few of the trees were beginning to change into their fall colors, giving a hint of the growing beauty that is yet to come.  It doesn’t seem to matter what season, for me the lake is a peaceful place.  Each season brings a unique beauty to it and in each one I am able to withdraw for a moment from the frustrations of life and be reminded of whose child I really am.  Yes, people should be courteous and take turns and clean up after themselves but whether they do so or not, I am still a child of God and need to live like one.  My time on the lake is good because it helps me to do my work as one working for the Lord.  It helped me laugh and clean up the mess I found tonight.  It helps me consider the mess I make of my life and know that God is always willing to step in and consider me cleansed by the blood of His Son.  In every time that I willingly, or unknowingly, make a mess in my life, God is willing to do the cleanup work because He is the only one that can.

I pray that you and I would pay attention to how we live and how our actions affect others.  I pray that we would be patient with one another, even when we’re tired and don’t want to be.  I pray that we would make time to spend with God in a way that allows Him opportunity to refresh our soul and clean up the mess we make.  I pray that we would trust the power of the blood of Jesus to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.

Page 245 was filled with a variety of tasks as I get ready for the weekend.  When I finished doing the morning cleaning and prep, the deer were waiting for me when I took the trash outside.  This morning there were two adult females and two young (still spotted) fawns out grazing on the dew covered lawn.  I guess they were getting a head start in helping me, as lawn mowing was on my schedule for the day.  I needed to mail a copy of one of my books out to a person requesting it, so I headed to Staples to buy some padded mailers and then went to the Post Office before stopping by the gas station to get fuel for the mower so I could start on the lawn.  

When I returned to the building, I had some air conditioning issues to work on as the building’s HVAC system continues to have a mind of its own.  After continuing to run into roadblocks with the system, I left it for a while and went out to begin mowing so I would have a good start on it before Friday.  As I mowed, a poem began to form in my head as scenes from the past began to resurface in my mind.  It seems that I often find myself having feelings of extreme isolation as my mind is wired in a way that speaks truth — even when that’s not really what people want to hear.  I’m one who believes that a process of integrity is important for those who claim to represent Christ.  The way we do things is just as important, maybe even more so, than the results.  God calls us to pursue Him in faithful obedience and trust Him for the results that He desires.  Too often we determine the results we want and then justify doing whatever it takes to make it happen, with little regard for what God would want or desire from us.

Once I finished mowing the back part of the property, I headed inside to take a fresh look at the A/C controls.  This time I got serious and pulled out the system manual and spent time studying how the computer connects to, and talks to, the various system components.  Once I had figured out where to begin looking for the problem, it wasn’t long before I had the computer talking to the system and could once again see what was, or wasn’t, going on.  It appeared as if some of the components had been switched to a manual mode so it looks like I will need to spend some time above the ceiling early next week to see what I can find out.  After doing all I could with that for the moment, I headed back outside to see what I could do about a reported wasp nest.  It didn’t look too active as most of the wasps were probably out collecting food during the day, so I knocked it down and stomped on it to destroy it.  Fortunately, as the wasps all came back looking for their home, they kept looking up where it used to be and not down on the ground where I was. 🙂

With the wasps out of the way, it was time to call it a day and head for home.  I spent a little time on the computer at home and then when Mary Jane headed back to work for a preschool open house, Susan and I headed down to Potato Creek to enjoy a beautiful fall-like evening.  While none of the eagles made an appearance, the sun and clouds and sparkling water made for some beautiful photos.  Susan was having so much fun that I even managed to get a good series of photos of her as we spent some time on one of the piers.  We walked and we laughed and it was just us and God.  It was a good ending to a day when my mind was mostly filled with turmoil.

I pray that you and I would recognize when we need to take a break and refocus on a task at a later time when our mind and thoughts are fresh and clear.  I pray that we would live with an integrity that has nothing to hide in our motives and actions.  I pray that we would never become so focused on our own agenda that we lose our integrity accomplishing the things we want.  I pray that we would understand the value of spending time with God and family in a way that we can set aside the turmoil of a day for a moment.