I had a tough time getting up and going to start page 101, but I made it happen and headed into work to get the building cleaned and ready for the day. It was a foggy start to the day as I drove to work, but not so much that visibility was a problem. After getting the cleaning done and the building ready for the day, I took the trash out and found great beauty in the fog lingering above the ground in the twilight of early morning. Today’s work was a mix of sermon prep, prayer & listening, newsletter work, and writing — with a few maintenance tasks thrown in for good measure as they came up.
As I spend time with God, I often contemplate what my life might look like from His perspective. I imagine it is a tough thing for anyone to consider, but when your mind is wired in a way that holds onto all the times you didn’t measure up by someone’s standard, it is easy to to question if God sees me as they do or through my faith in Jesus. The good thing is that this contemplation draws me closer to Jesus as I realize how hopelessly lost I am without Him. Not that the thoughts of inadequacy fill my mind on a daily basis, but there are days when the circumstances of life somehow access memories that it seems like would be better off erased. It is in times like these that I lean upon God to help me take every thought captive as I walk in obedience to Him.
As I worked, it looked like it could rain at any time, but it didn’t. The birds were active today and not only filled the trees outside my office window, there were many who hopped along the ground pulling bugs, worms, and whatever else they could find useful out of the ground. Today’s photo is of a Flicker as he made his way across the lawn, poking his beak into the soil on a regular basis. Normally, I see him in nearby trees tapping away at the bark in his search for food. When I first began seeing this type of bird, I assumed it was a woodpecker and referred to it as such. After being politely corrected online one day, I did some research and discovered that it has its own name. Sometimes it is far too easy to lump people together into categories because of a somewhat similar characteristic and in the process completely miss their unique qualities and who they are as a person.
It was a day where most of the things I was working on are ongoing projects that I didn’t complete today, but by mid-afternoon it was time to call it a day as I stopped for lunch on the way home. After spending a little time unwinding at home, I fired up the pellet grill to get some pork chops started for supper then began working on a drainage issue with our sump pump. Our ground has an extremely high clay content, so that it becomes easily saturated and then then the water doesn’t drain away. The grass around the discharge area had begun to die so it is time to figure out a new drainage field for it. It, too, will be an ongoing project as I didn’t get finished before the pork chops did so I covered my work area for the night headed in to eat and finish out the day. I began writing today’s page in the evening but was so tired that it was difficult to focus. I finally gave up on it and went to bed where I had a good night’s sleep before finishing this page at work the next morning.
As I reflect on the day, here are some thoughts/lessons that stand out to me:
- Sometimes the hardest part of the day, or project, is getting started. In those times it is important to press on with what you know needs done.
- Some days we recognize that our visibility is limited. Those days should remind us that it is always limited — we only see in part what God has planned for those who love Him.
- There can be beauty in not being able to see everything if we focus on what God has chosen to reveal to us rather than on what He hasn’t.
- Words matter.
- The words you speak are never fully erased from your mind or the minds of those you’ve spoken them to.
- The words you hear are always with you and sometimes need to be overcome by the power of the Word of God.
- Knowing how the enemy attacks helps you to recognize him when you find yourself in a battle.
- God’s love and His Word are meant to flow through us. We must gain from it but we are not meant to fully contain it, it must be shared.
- Finishing later than what you planned is not failure.