Page 198 has been a day of ups and downs as my mind has had a difficult time slowing down enough to rest. I went to bed exhausted last night and slept hard for a few hours before waking up during the night. The few hours rest was enough to get the mind running again, making a return to sleep difficult. So, today began in the early morning hours with time spent praying and doing some writing. As I did so I found tears running down my cheeks, which for some reason my brain wiring doesn’t allow to happen very often. The sorrow of the week had built up to the point it was finally leaking out. Eventually my prayer time had restored a peace that allowed a return to sleep. Another few hours of deep sleep found me awake again for some more prayer and writing before I was able to go back to sleep. This time brought me to a point of “sleeping in” before I finally got up and Susan and I headed to the zoo for our Saturday morning daddy/daughter date. As we walked through the zoo, I found my eyes again filling with tears as I thought about the incredible privilege of being with my daughter.
After our zoo trip we stopped by the office so I could pick up a file off my computer to finish up some writing I had promised to have done by the end of this week. It was a seven day devotional on serving with integrity and I still had two and a half days to finish writing in it. Once home I finished the writing and was able to send the week’s devotions off to the person wanting to use them. Then it was time to fire up the pellet grill to make our weekly mushroom bacon cheeseburgers for lunch. After lunch a some time spent just relaxing, we headed out to take some pictures at Bonneyville Mill County Park in Bristol, Indiana. It was such a relaxing and peaceful time to walk a little and enjoy the beauty of the park. The reflection of the mill and surrounding buildings in the ponds and the gentle sounds of the small waterfalls were a reminder of the peace that only God can restore. The park visit was followed up with ice cream and a Sam’s Club visit before coming home to work on getting next week’s prayer guide formatted and scheduled to go out first thing in the morning.
As I thought about the day, the song, “It Is Well With My Soul”, once again filled my mind. It can be easy, and even expected, to feel it is well with my soul when peace flows like a river in my life. The tough part is knowing and remembering that it can still be well with my soul even when “sorrows like sea billows roll”. It is on days like today that God draws me to Himself and reminds me that He is the only One who can make it well with my soul in all circumstances. As I mentioned during the funeral message yesterday, the greatest part of that entire song for me is the final verse that serves as a reminder that in Christ it will be well with my soul when the “trump shall resound, and the Lord shall descend”. When I stopped at the church for the files I needed, I noticed that my end of the week cleaning still needed done so I’ll close today’s page and try to get some sleep so I can go in early tomorrow to take care of it before the church services.
I pray that you and I seek, know, and experience the peace of God in all circumstances. I pray that we would make time to find restful spots where we can be reminded of the peace God desires for us to have. I pray that our faithfulness to Jesus would allow us to be filled with peace when we meet Jesus face to face.