I set up a “Giving Tuesday” fundraiser on my social media accounts to raise funds for the prayer ministry I direct.
I have to say the response so far, and the day is quickly coming to a close, has been much less than I had hoped for. While I am indeed thankful for those who have given today, and for those who may yet give, this post isn’t really about them . . . rather, it’s about me . . . and perhaps about you.
Yet, even that paragraph only tells half the story of the day . . . if even that. You see, there was another part to my Giving Tuesday involvement as it didn’t seem right to have a day called “Giving Tuesday” without my being involved in the giving.
In this part of my Giving Tuesday, I ran a promotion on Amazon where all of the Kindle editions of my prayer-based devotional books were free. It was here that my hopes for the day have been exceeded as nearly 100 copies of my books have made their way into the Kindle readers of people who will use them. (By the way, that promotional arrangement with Amazon ends today so if you see this before Tuesday, November 27 is over, feel free to join those who are making use of these resources.)
If you’re still following me in this post, we’re finally getting to the title. 🙂 It seems it is easy for me to slide into a mode of praying “my will be done.” If my will isn’t done, if my hopes aren’t fulfilled, I find that I can easily become discouraged. Even when I finish the day with more available funds to do ministry than when the day began, it is easy to forget that fact when my will isn’t met.
And then God gently reminds me, “you’re not in this to make money or raise funds, you’re in this to help people grow in relationship with Me.” He gives me a glimpse into how He is using the gift of writing He put within my life. He reminds me that the writing is indeed His gift and that I am supposed to be sharing it. He calls me to rejoice, not in dollars collected but in lives touched by the words He has given. He reminds me of the prayer of Jesus that ought to be the prayer of you and I; “Not my will, but yours be done.” And through it all He calls me to be thankful that it is His will being done and asks me to lift my eyes to Him as He helps me to daily surrender my will to His.
So I look again at the dollars raised and the books given and I thank God that while there is rarely excess, He has always provided what is needed to do what is His will. I simply need to pay more attention and be more careful in seeking His will rather than my own. I pray that you also would allow God to help you to see whose will you are really pursuing. I pray that you would do your very best in everything you pursue, but learn to be content even if the results ends up being different than what you had hoped for.
Praying that God’s will be done and that mine becomes more like His each day.